Ascending Soul - a poem by Rumi

I died as mineral and became a plant,
I died as plant and rose to animal,
I died as animal and I was man.
Why should I fear? When was I less by dying?

Yet, once more, I shall die as man, to soar
With angels blessed; but even from angelhood
I must pass on; all except God doth perish.

When I have sacrificed my angel soul,
I shall become what no mind e’ev conceived.
Oh, Let me not exist! For Non-existence
Proclaims in organ tones, “To Him we shall return.”

In the first part of this poem Rumi celebrates himself for his evolution from mineral state to the state of being born as human being. The realization of the fact of his own evolution gave him the sound basis for having unwavering faith in still better possibilities lying ahead.

In the second part of this poem Rumi says that when one dies to one’s mean and small ordinary psychological self (lower-self), and is reborn - the angelic qualities of unconditional love, compassion, child-like pure godly wisdom, etc becomes his very nature - one soars with angels blessed. But, he continue to say, except the Absolute (Akshar-Brahm), such relative immortality (existence after death as angel or god) comes to an end at some point of time, however inconceivably long may be such existence in angelic self.

In the third part of this poem Rumi says that realizing this (mortality of relative immortality) he sacrificed the attachment (the sense of oneness) with the bliss and enlightenment of angel soul, and became fana in Him. (To be fana means to lose, that is, to totally disregard one’s angel-self before the vastness, source-ness-of-everything and glory of The God). Then, he experienced the state, which no mind (even the mind of angel soul) can fathom. And that fana-state proclaimed “To Him we shall return”.

Place of verse in my life

I wonder, in my life what's the place of verse?
It does place my bosom beyond the purse,
From where it becomes possible to see
Many a motive, playing their part in me;

And from that beauty, when I listen to words,
It unfolds the feeling that sound affords;
And, helps me learn how to conceive and wait
But of that sweet soft pain, what could be writ!

I, even in a furious or pensive mood,
If sit to write, my Muse uses it as food
And, from that, cool vividness does create;
With this bright ink her pen grafts my fate.

Who could gift such a wondrous wealth to me?
Ah! It’s hugging hand of my darling, thee!!!

Truth liberates

I was just asking myself, What the phrase "Truth liberates" practically means for me? Have I ever knowingly or unknowingly experienced such moments of liberation so far? If yes, then, what I mean by Liberation? Obviously by Liberation I do not mean “Moksha or Nirwana” in traditional sense. For me Liberation means a moment of beautiful state of Being when there is clear absence of inner chatter, emotional turmoil propelled by inner compulsions, or uneasiness of guts, and there is clear perception of facts without any condemnation or attachment, and so unbiased, uncompelled decisiveness & action becomes possible on its own. We all have experienced such few beautiful scattered moments in life.

What sets in this process of liberation? It says, Truth Liberates. What we mean by truth here? When one sees in the moment bare fact, leaving aside one’s likes-dislikes, opinion or the immediate beneficiality of the thing in question, a strange feeling of beauty, peace, freedom & here-now-ness comes into being. This is a moment of freedom, liberation. However, it has different degrees & scales. So, by seeing the fact as fact, truth comes into being for one in the moment.

It moves, proceeds moment to moment so it can never be static. Now one experiences such moment of freedom but in the next moment if the inner verbal process of opinion forming begins, or like-dislike or fearful uneasiness of guts comes into picture, one loses it and again one is in ordinary state of Being. So, the question is, is it possible to increase the frequency of such beautiful moments, and when it really occurs, is it possible to prolong it?

Fall & Spring

The woods in the fall stands in silent toil,
Reminiscing the bliss of lovely spring,
Not moaning, nor groaning, but as a foil
For the bright blue sky, unstained and unending.

Does, thriving on quiet strength of belief
That to pass this with patience is a payment
And from which it's useless to seek relief,
It gently waits for the flowering moment?

But my naive heart toils to evade the fall,
And yet, doubles its duration and depth
By damning it as a dejecting call
And not seeing silent sufferance’s worth;

Rise of this muse gilded the dark sky of gloom.
Upon this golden foil, gloom turned into bloom!

Overstepping

Many a time, thy gleam has filled my heart
And made its sweet wealth of love alive,
But thy way is so simple like Nature's Art
That it's not easy to see what on it thrive!

So, the cloud of doubt about thy divinity
Oft darkens the space of my inner-sky;
Very real looks then that dark elusive lie,
Affording life to all my pains and enmity.

One dawn, quietly my Being did resound,
"Let not this darkening doubt disturb me now"
And ah ! That dark itself became the ground
Wherefrom to fly in the space where livest thou.

Lo, how simple but tricky it could be
To overstep the shadow and be in thee!

Will - the function of Awakened Intelligence

When one attains the Chitta-Vriti-Nirodha state, that is, when the scattered Chitta-Vritis (the content of diffused attention) collects together, and becomes aware of itself and the object of observation both simultaneously; then because of this two-pointed awareness, it becomes unattached (non-identified) towards the outside objects – this outside objects may be something that exists outside the body, or it may be a thought, emotion, sensation, or moving impulse. This is the Sakshibhava; or the third state of consciousness; or Mandukya Upanishad’s Vishva, the first Pada (quarter) of Brahm.

When, in the prolonged moments of third state of consciousness, the Intelligence realizes that it is not really bound to take decisions according to the chaos of the internal fight between four lower centers; it awakens and becomes aware of its powers to take decisions, and of the fact that the Mind (four lower centers) follows its decision without any resistance, provided it was taken independent of that chaos – this marks the emergence of the will. Such will issues down from the above; down towards heart from the forehead (not from the brain but from the third-eye), this is not a metaphor but an actual material fact, which can be experienced.

This also marks the cessation of wrong work of the four lower centers and the misuse of sex energy by them; and this causes the Mind to become quite and one pointed (that is, the four lower center become unified).

Thus all the three forces are upgraded to next level of evolution (world 12): will, the function of awakened Intelligence, is Rajasa-12 (1st force); the silenced and unified Mind is Tamasa-12 (2nd force); and Chitta-Vriti-Nirodha state, the third state of consciousness is Sattva-12 (3rd force). Putting in other words we can say that Awakened Intelligence is Carbon-12, the Unified Mind is Oxygen-12, the third state of consciousness is Nitrogen-12; and the purified Ego or Soul - which include in itself all the three - is Hydrogen-12 (Father, mother, and son: carbon, oxygen, and nitrogen. The family is hydrogen). The beginning of a new family is the son; therefore, first of all one should make efforts to attain the third state of consciousness; then this 3rd force will help the Intelligence (1st force) to awaken, and to control the Mind, the four lower centers, (2nd force). This whole activity is the domain of fully developed Higher Emotional Center.

The nature has given man the sex energy, which is of the level of world-12, say C-12, as it is Rajasic, the creative energy. But four lower centers fight among themselves to consume this energy - ordinary intellect (verbal thought process) misuses it in uncontrolled inner chattering & wishful fantacy, emotional center misuses it in feeling and expressing anger, hate, dejection and other such negative emotions, and moving & instinctive center misuses it in excessive and vehement sensual indulgences & violent physical activity. When this wrong work of lower centers and misuse of sex energy is stopped, it becomes available for creative work and/or for transmutation. When it is transmuted by non-expression and transformation of negative emotions, or by right kind of Brahmacharya, it is converted into emanations, and this marks the birth of the Astral body (world-12) within the physical body- the real rebirth in this life itself (becoming dwiz).

Anger

Shall I compare the anger with actual death?
The anger is more deadly and more harmful;
The anger is to wisdom what asthma to breath,
Day by day it reduces the stretch of cool.

It makes the skin devour her beautiful glow
And draws lines on face, and makes it look aged
Far more than fact, this, when told, gives a blow;
And mirror of love's eyes does make it ragged.

It makes blood pressure quietly to grow,
And blinds the wisdom giving way to devil;
So, fine friend also looks at with raised brow,
Only to make it more rash to spoil all deal.

Actual death makes only once, the body to die;
But this fierce foe makes daily, the Soul to cry.

Utter irrelevance of my opinion & belief

I remember when we were studying in primary school in our small remote village, we few friends were favorite students of the Head Master. We used to do his household personal work also. That time we friends were thinking and murmuring that at present time this is the only school on the Earth and what we are learning here is the highest and the most perfected teaching.

I always loved & still love my school as most important institution of my life, where I have learned how to learn. I owe much to our school and to our loving & caring Head Master.

Now when I look back and recollect all these, I can feel and understand, without a bit of thinking, that under those situations, and the maturity level possible at our age then, such thinking & belief was natural and pardonable. So, then, why one shall take today's thinking & beliefs to be factual ? Rather, why one shall have beliefs at all ? Just asking myself, Is it possible to keep it open & flowing moment-to-moment ?

Like “3 IDIOTS”, “AVATAR” also characterizes the charisma of the Essence (the child-like basic intelligence of being a human. One is said to be in his/her Essence when one acts moment-to-moment from the perception of his entire being – mind, heart, impulse, unconscious, all taken together – disregarding the ordinary mean thinking) dominating over Personality (the culmination of grown-up smart intellect learned from the prevailing mass of current human thinking).

Can one see the strangeness of human mind admiring, rather worshiping the Avatar’s sex act with Pandora girl making him exclusively one with her forever…….But in real life what one does? Not even does, what one advocates?